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[Oct. 10th, 2008|02:59 pm] |
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so this is going to be a quick note. I am back at work and I now have to have the screw removed from my foot, but I will write more about that later.
I didnt go to work today called in with a major migraine.
Last nite while I was out and about for the first time in a long time I found out that my furry companion died last night before I got off of work. She had been sick for a few weeks and I was told that she had a kitty cold .... and like a human cold just needed to let it run its course. However Vets are at a disavantage..... a cat cant say oh well I have also been hurting here..... oh well. I go tomorrow to put her into the ground and let her rest. I was not prepared for this .... as I was when I had to put my older than god cat down last year. She was the last of my cats.
I e-mailed my ex today to let him know, since it was his cat to begin with and well I know he cared for her, I didnt want him to find out from the grapevine that is portland. I never want to write an email like that again. I knew he would want to know...
so... today deal with my aching head, tomorrow put my cat into the ground. I was with a lot of people last night when I found out and I am glad to have had a few good friends there to help me out. Sean was a doll and talked with me for quite a bit and let me know I was not alone, Jess brought the wonderful booze to me and others gave me hugs and support. Then two of my dearest friends babysat me all night as I came to terms with this..... or at least did a very good job trying to distract me. it is funny the way that our pets own us and yet we feel that they are our children. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2008|12:48 pm] |
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okay.... so I know it has been a while since I have posted.... but as I have been doing nothing and going no where lol I have not had much to say. Well heres a quick recap. Birthday ...... sucked....... foot..... still hurts....... yep that covers it lol
so I went to the doc today due to the fact that I am supposed to be going back to workk on Wed the 27th.... yeah well that is so not the case now. I talked with the doc today and since I am having alot pain still and still cant walk on it unless I am walking on the total side of my foot...... my foot shouldnt still be swelling like it is and he should be able to move the toe with out the pain that I am feeling.... so x-ray time to see what was going on.... it seems that the pins are starting to leave the bones in which they were put.... not a lot but enough that the doctor is a wee bit worried that my body may be rejecting the titanium pins. I am not have a reaction but my body is pusing the metal out .... slowly. I then expalined about half of the piercing that I get slowly gets pushed out. not that I have a reaction just my body pushes it out.
so I go back to see him on hte 9th and he doesnt want me to go back to work in the meantime..... but he does want me to continue to walk on it. Hoping that it will get better....... if it doesnt then well.... out go the pins ---- which means after he removes them then just a short week of recovery and a short time after that I will be able to bend my damned toes agan --- gleeeeeee!!!!! I am just glad it will be over..... and then I just rebuild strength in my foot and I will be able to walk again with out the pain that has plauged me for so freaking long.
so here is to possibly getting the pins out in hte next month or two... and then will be able to wear heels by the end of the year woot!!!!! lol |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2008|09:56 am] |
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so...... only have 3 weeks left before I head back to work and the world of the living..... I am surprised it is going so fast..... I may be bored.... however meep.... lol...... it still hurts..... a lot
so I ordered my cane .... I am hoping it gets here soon.. I hate crutches and it is doing horrible things to my back and hips.
Later this weekend I will need to call my Aunt/Godmother to see how she is doing.... since she had onl.y a few short weeks left...... grrrrrrr
so.... other than that not doing much..... infact I have no plans for the weekend.... Today just hang out around the house.... tomorrow.... Worlds best roomy goes over to his weekly parental gathering and well .... me?? hainging out around the house..... one hell of a way to spend this weekend. Joy --- nice to know some things never change no matter how much you want them to---- same with people I guess
so .... in need of much more wonderful coffee of life... mmmmmmmmm coffee...... I love my caffine.... it loves me...... tee hee |
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[Aug. 1st, 2008|09:34 pm] |
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so... while trying to sync my laptop to my phone I accidently erased all my addresses and a lot of my phone numbers..... whoops.... so if everyone could message me with their current addresses and phone numbers that would be great |
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[Aug. 1st, 2008|11:59 am] |
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so... I have only been up for a few hours....... but what a few hours. I called my older sis to wish her a Happy Birthday as---- we are 10 years apart lol--- havent talked with her for a little over a year and well found out some info......
First off my sisters mother died last Aug. That was a shock..... I didnt know her well however she did live with us for a while. The second bit of bad news is that my Aunt Bobby ..... my godmother..... is very sick and is expected to live only a couple weeks longer. She has liver cancer. I guess she was up here a few weeks ago in the hospital and has since been moved back to her house .... where our uncle walt....(well close enough to uncle) and his sister who is a hospice nurse and has come up to take care of her in her last few weeks. On the better side of things.... my sisters kids--- my beloved nieces... are doing well.... found out the name of my newest grand niece... Victoria louise.... I think the second name is louise.... lol.... but she was named after my sisters mother that passed....... Victoria ended up with my nieces pale skin and her fathers eyes...... my oldest niece is northern Itallian.... and her father is mexican so.... it is going to be a beautiful child.
so yea........ wow and all before I finished my second cup of coffee..... good gods.
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[Aug. 1st, 2008|12:42 am] |
Happy Birthday Mo!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is a birthday song ... It isnt very long... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! |
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[Jul. 31st, 2008|06:34 pm] |
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well.... went to the doc today.... got some new photos of my foot. I was able to get closer on the pics from the x-ray... so I asked my doc whats up with the pin in my foot.... the long one in my toe... you know the one I didnt remember him telling me about... he said he did mention it ---- I must of not heard him..... I diecided not to get in to it that neither I nor my friend who when to all my appointments with me..... never remember hearing it..... oh well.... he did give me hope though.... said the pin .... well more tech... the screw in my foot may be able to come out in about 2 years....... grrrrrrr lol oh well.......
tried telling the doc about the weird pains in my foot...... said a combo of it should start to feel remarkably better in the next 2 weeks and that I am just sensitive.... ummmm okay I tried I expaline that I have actually had 2 knee surgerys and that I have had ankle surgery before... oh well.... in 2 weeks (he is going one vacaion next week so no outing for me next week. ) hopefully I will be able to report that I am indeed feeling better..... he was surprised that I am still using the crutches...... well..... I am still in a lot of pain..... grrrrrrr
so.... got to go out and see the world outside of my house..... and when worlds best roommy gets home.... we are going to go out for dinner lol.... out two times in one day ..... almost feel normal. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2008|10:52 pm] |
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Tomorrow in the early morning..... ummm okay early for me...... I head back to the doc and see again how I am progressing. Must ask him why there is an extra pin in my foot and ask him if it is normal that I still cant walk correctly on my foot...... I am not surprised that I cant.... I just dont think it is supposed to feel like a bunched up sock under my skin... lol must ..... it must be the tendon that he moved.... and well lets face it he moved a whole bunch of stuff around and now I guess I just have to get used to it. Not surprised that the pain is still there. it has only been about a month.... well almost a month..... But there will be another x-day so I will get a pic of that one as well and hopefully it will look better than the last.
I am officially going stir crazy...... been couped up for almost a month, and not being able to do anything about it is slowly driving me insane. really there is only so much you can do when you cant walk and still taking pain killers lol. With everyone being busy... work and other engagements since it is summer time.... I am so bored.
So on another note.... annoyed............ that is all I will say on that one ..... just annoyed
well as I have nothing more to say I am going to go watch another movie. |
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[Jul. 28th, 2008|04:53 pm] |
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So.... knowing that I am in a horrid mood..... worlds best roommate is taking me out for raw fishies this eve... woot an outing..... |
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[Jul. 27th, 2008|08:27 am] |
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So... yesterday I get an unexpected call from our dark friend up north.... only now he is stationed in OK lol..... I told him he needed to get out of that state as soon as possible. Knowing my past he started laughing. He will be relocated on Aug 8 to one of two different locations. The whole point of this is that I have his addy for anyone who wants it.... E-mails are great.... but there is something about receiving cards and pictures thru the mail. I am also eventually going to be getting together a care package for him.... so if anyone wants to contribute..... I will send it to him lol
Other than that I am just bored. Big surprise there. I have a little over 4 weeks left and then I go back to work. meep lol
so yea this is just a quick note to let all of you know I have Evils new addy at least until August lol
e-mail or call when you get a chance and I will give it to you
Now coffee..... lots and lots of coffee ..... mmmmmmmm caffeine goodness....... |
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[Jul. 24th, 2008|08:44 am] |
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Went to the doctor yesterday.... I seem to be healing just fine, no infection, the seeping is normal I guess lol. He said not to worry. I go in again next week to get more x-rays done and to view my healing progress. Next time I go in ..... I ask him why he never told me I would be having a pin the length of my toe added...... grrrrrr still really not thrilled about that but I am dealing.
Other than that I have not been doing much--- went over to Patrick and Mikhails with John and Rob on Saturday to help set up for Patrick b-day party tee hee...... just be glad we didnt have more decorations at our hands lol. but over all it was great and the company of wonderful people..... we stayed late playing apples to apples and that was hilarious.... I love that game... Oh and lol found out I can still drink like the rest of them lol even while on the pain killers. I tend to recall the last part of the eve doing shots with the birthday boy lololololol
My roommate leaves today for 4 days of camping.... so it will just be me and the cat...... ohhhhh I can tell now that she is plotting. I have movies and stuff I can do from the couch that will keep my occupied...... bored but occupied. I was a bit worried about food since we have very little in the house and it isnt like I can go out and get something lol but I have found that d-dish has expanded their delivery area and now includes my zip yea!!!!!!
I have allready ordered teh outfits for a themed party in August.... some lovely sarees. Although I got 3 for the price of the one I really, REALLY wanted. I will get that later this summer---- I just to have it. Beautiful olive green and burgundy...... until I lose some weight my joke was hmmmmmm I will look like a little sunburnt olive....... how cute..... lol but the ones I did get were black (go figure) one with olive green trim and one with a burgundy....... and I think I did get a pure burgandy one. Cant wait for them to get here so I can see how I look in them. I am hoping well since I dont like regular dresses since my knee surgery.... damned scars........
So I am starting to look at designs for my foot for a tattoo. I am thinking of some sort of spiral leafy design but I dont know. I just want something that if I go around barefoot I wont actually look like frankenfoot. Although I know that will be a long time in coming since I have to wait until I fully heal before I go and do that.
So today I resumed my search for a cane. since I plan on ditching the crutches just as soon as I can. I found a lot that I really liked however, it all came down to what shoes am I going to wear until I am fully healed. since the difference between my tennis shoes and my docs are about 3 inches..... which is a lot when you are looking at sizing a cane. Today I happen to find one that looked pretty decent and the bottom does adjust so you dont have to have it sized.... yea!!!!! I can wear my doc, tennis shoes or go barefoot. since barefoot I range between 5'2" and 5'3" and with shoes I can be 5'5" tee hee love the docs........ tee hee
so yeah..... going to be really really bored this weekend.
thought I would let you all know I am still alive and well lololol my roommate hasnt killed me..... yet...... |
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[Jul. 19th, 2008|11:54 am] |
okay ...... so I am still alive, still on pain meds, scared to think about how much of it I have built up into my system but hey lol. I am going over to Mikhails and Patricks later today after Rob and John pick me up so that we may get the house and food ready for Patrick B-day party.... and when I say "we" I actually mean Rob and John with me sitting and watching lol I will go as much as I can but hey lol I am a gimp right now. I am excited to see people. Dont get me wrong..... I dont usually like people .... however there are only so many conversations you can have with ones cat before you start to lose your mind. lol still trying to convince her to grow thumbs and get me a stupid otter pop lol. Anyhoo
I am healing.... fast in some ways and in other not-so-much. I seem to be healing great but I still have much pain. I go back to the doc on Wed. Hoping to get another x-ray so I can take a better pic.
Did I mention I am so freaking bored???
so other than that I have been having strange dreams ....... again lol. Like that ever changes. Dreams about old friends, dreams about newer friends, and dreams that I have drempt before.... but are changed.... it is hard to explain but anyone who knows me from when we were kids knows that I have allways had strange dreams.... well this is stranger than the usuall .... the worst part is I only remember a little here and there. Oh well lol.
hmmmm oh well lol just wanted to let you all know I am still alive..... bored out of my freaking skull but alive none the less.
Well must start the getting ready process....... I am once again going to atempt to make it up the stairs......... STAIRS ARE STILL MY MORTAL ENEMY lol...... really people they are no fun on crutches lol.
Off to go get ready to go over and eat grilled dead mamal with some friends |
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[Jul. 14th, 2008|02:15 pm] |
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so..... allrighty I went to the doc to see how I was doing and to get photos taken of the bones to see how they are comming along. well.... I got some more great photos of the healing foot and I got a photo of the x-ray.....
So here is the main reason I am pissed at the doc right now. I first asked why he changed what he was going to do and went in thru the top of my foot instead of the bottom like we talked about, His response was it was easier.... okay I get that but instead of surprising me with a frankenfoot.... he could have warned me that was a possibility and second the main reason I am so angry right now..... HE NEVER TOLD ME I WOULD HAVE A SCREW THE ENTIRE LENGTH OF THE TOE .......... for those of you who are a little confused. I will NEVER again be able to bend that toe. it will forever be straight. He "doesnt" think that will inhibit me from wearing heels in the future but then he said I have never worn heels so I actually dont know.
aaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhh
I didnt know he was going to do that. the only thing he ever told me or Liz who I took with me for all my apts was that there was goign to be a small pin or weight thingy where the bone was cut to pin it together so it could knit back to gether and keep my toe from buckling while the healing was going on. so now I will have frankenfoot and not be able to bend my toe....... anyone who knows me knows how much I use my little mokey toes to do things.... I constantly pick stuff up and well.... damn it they are my little prehensile mokney toes............ grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
but the up side ..... eventually there will be no pain.
I know I am taking this harder right now for I am in pain, and the pain meds are looping me out.
I got the stitches removed today ...... he butterflied the wound shut..... except where the toe actually meets the foot and that is now seeping blood. I am going to keep my eye on it and if it continues then there will be a not so nice call to the doc.....
but I am healing. The doc is surpised with the amount of pain I am still in but realized I actually do have thin skin and sensitive, but he was surprised at the amount of pain I am still in when he touched the spot where I have the cut bone....... ummmmm hello it has only been 11 days.... okay I go now.... for I am starting to rant. just wanted to let you all know how I am doing. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2008|08:55 am] |
well I am home and yeshhhh lol I have been fed and watered. lol. We went to Heidi and Robs wedding. It was beautiful!!!!! She was Beautiful!!!!!! Her dress, her hair, her makeup, HER DRESS she looked like a fairy princess..... tee hee. I snapped as many photos as I could from my sitting position and dodging peoples legs and asses. ehhhh what do you expect when I cant walk lol and I did end up having one drink on top of my meds. I will pass them onto Heidi soon. We hung out for a while.... and let me just say oh yeah the gimp jokes never get old people...... with as many times as I have been on crutches, leg braces or various other injuries lol I think I have heard them all. it was good to see everyone that was there ..... for the past ten days my only companions have been my mother and her cat. lol. We left around 4.30 and came back to the house. yeah in the whole 5 mins I spent out in the sun I got sunburned. joy.... then after some pills and some cooling down we headed back. by then most of the people had gone, but we got to say our hellos again to the bride and groom. We hung out for a while and then the newlyweds left and left a few of us to hang out and catch up..... I spent most of the night looking up at the stars and got into a conversation about the big and little dippers, expanding universes and then well of course the north star lololol yea we are all pretty much dorks lol Eventually we all headed our separate ways and I got home, put my foot up and gods did that feel good. Today is rest and pills and more rest. I go to the doctor tomorrow to see how I am doing
well now it is time to smoke and possibly after popping a few pain pills time to sleep....... or at least nap |
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[Jul. 12th, 2008|11:01 am] |
random fact thought I would share
Since the National Weather Service began keeping records in 1892, it's never rained on this day in Salem, OR
talking about 12 of july
so I am at home now..... it is good to be home. My cat did the frantic....is it you??? pet me pet me pet me
and is now snubbing me for being away for so long. I dont think she has noticed my bandaged foot or the crutches yet.
In about an hour I am heading over to Mikhails for Heidi and Robs Wedding. I am debating on taking the major pain pills for I would really like to drink after the cermony..... but then ........ lol I am weighing the pain vrs liquor options lol.
I am home
I am home
I am home
tee hee
I am home |
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[Jul. 11th, 2008|03:49 pm] |
So... I go home tomorrow. After a quick stop by to say hello to my grandmother, then to the store to pick up some provisions. Then I go back to my house get all my stuff put into my house say hello to my roommate and my very much missed kitty........ then off to Mikhails early for Heidi and Robs wedding. I am getting there early for well lol I cant really walk and I will need to go sit in the shade in the chair I have allready claimed so I can put my foot up and try to stay out of everyones way.
My foot is still killing me..... big surprise it has only been 9 days since I had the damned surgery..... but it does feel better than I thought I would by this time. Still trying just to be able to get around. Although I did have the bright idea of not taking the oxycodone since I feel okay..... ummmmm yea ..... no........ by afternoonish..... I am in pain lol. lots and lots of pain. I guess I can cut down on the drugs but not quit them lol. not yet at least. So I had lunch and well popped my little white pills of little pain and now feel loopy and much, much better. Hey at least I tried lol. I guess a week and a half after having a bone cut in half and moved and some tendons moved as well to stop with the pain pills..... grrrrrrr......
oh well.
I just dont like this fog over my brain. and the woozy and the dizzy and all the other side effects but I do really, really like the little pain that is a result.
so lesson learned for today..... still need the little white pills of little pain......
I am going home tomorrow...... so anytime after Saturday if anyone would like to come and visit the little gimpy redhead.... |
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[Jul. 7th, 2008|07:02 pm] |
So.... got back from having dinner and going to the Doc's so he could look at my little footsies..... ummmmm yeah got soe really gross photos of the stitches....... ummmm yea ummmmm he orriginally told me that I would be cut on the bottom of my foot..... oh..nonononononono he sliced me from the tip of my toe.... to the middle of my foot. great.... I before this never had a problem with my feet...... going barefoot, wearing sandles.... hmmmmm I might be having some issues here (although I did make the joke that if I sometime had shin surgery I would actually have stitches scars from toe to knee lol--- Yes I know I am not right in the head) but yeah that was a surprise since a tiny little cut turned into hello I just got flayed open.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
well The surgery went fine... they used a new kind of anstectic on me since well I dont have a good history with the old ones.... actually no one in my family does well on them. this one they put thru my IV and told me in a couple mins I would feel as though I just had a martini or three .... then he put the oxygen on me and that was all I remember until I woke up...... the only down side was that I itched like mad while awakening.... so there was benadryl involved..... he did end up having to cut the bone in half and shortened it a wee bit. then there was the moving of the bone, the reattaching the bone and the moving of a tendon...... I can start to bear a wee bit of weight on it. With crutches, and only until it hurts (which is about the 2nd or 3rd step of only putting about a pound of pressure on the heel) STAIRS ARE MY MORTAL ENEMY RIGHT NOW ---- the crutches do not like the stairs, do not like them sam I am ........
well if you cant tell I am getting doped up now as I type..... the beloved white pills of little pain are kicking in....... I hate being doped up ....but really like the little pain part.... although now that I am going to be trying to bear some weight on it ......... I have the distinct feeling that there will be more pain that up to now.
Well just wanted to let ya'll know how I was doing...... I plan on smoking and then going and becoming one with the couch...... I have Mt. Dew, water, a remote or two, a cat, doggie and my pain pills...... yep sounds like another exciting evening for me.... lol
good gods I need a life |
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[Jul. 6th, 2008|08:04 am] |
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So... doing well. Healing and crap lol. I have been taking the pain pills and getting sleep when I can. I am doing better with the stronger drugs. lol damn tolerences. grrrrrrr. So yeah I have taken a few pics of my foot all bandaged up and will have to post them as soon as I have the concentration to download the software for my phone onto the laptop. My moms cat is halarious. I have been using my grandmothers wheelchair to move around the house (so I do not have to use the evil crutches yet) and my moms cat has to escort me everywhere.... the only bad thing is he will lay in the path I am going and stay there until I pet him ...... alot lol. still a little too out of it to post much.... and the pain killers are kicking in.... just wanted to drop a note letting you all know I am alive and well ........... dealing with the pain and the itching. going to go pass out again now......... will write more when I can see with both eyes not just one. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2008|05:13 pm] |
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the new drugs are wonderful lol. I have had them before and they make me a little loopy and or dizzy sometime a wee bit sick.....but the pain.... the pain is sooooo much better. I took a nap..... feel tons better. Still could use somemore sleep..... but I can do that this eve. Watching the Twilight Zone marathon now and keeping cool with my mothers airconditioner. lol... the drugs make me warm--- and jen doenst like warm.... well when I am feeling a bit more awake I will write more about the surgery.... just wanted ya'll to know that the newer drugs had worked and sleep came my way.... tee hee...... I "almost" feel great lololol. well going to continue to zone....... yea for drugs that work. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2008|12:28 pm] |
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so..... the "morphine lite" did little to no good for me. When I say I have an unnatural high tolerence to things like pain meds..... I actually mean I have a really really really high tolerence lol..... But the doc prescribed me oxycodone.... so feeling much less pain now and gleeeee that means I will be able to sleep soon. I havent slept for more than an hour at a time so far due to the pain not being blocked...... but new meds and a nap and I will feel soooooooo much better.
well off to nap now... |
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